The night we celebrated our first anniversary, I found out she cheated when the relationship was only five months old. It’s not the cheating that hurt me the most but the one she cheated with. He was a friend who wanted to date her but she said no. That was before I came into the picture. She told me about it. She thought me wanting her was a bet between me and my friend to see who’d win. I had to bring her a piece of the sun for her to believe my intentions were pure and not a bet......See Full Story>>.....See Full Story>>
That friend she said no to had an opportunity to travel abroad. A couple of days before he left the country, they spent a weekend together in a hotel and did everything they could do before the guy left the country. The guy bragged about it to a friend and that friend laughed about it to another friend. It moved within the circle until I got to know of it.
My pride melted on my chest. I felt bruised in my heart and weak in my knee. “Someone you rejected for me? Was it because of the abroad?”
She said during those periods I wasn’t acting right so she thought I was going to leave her. It was a lie but I forgave her.
It took time but the feeling of hurt and anguish slowly dissipated. Two years later, we want to marry but that guy is back in the country. His presence is peeling off the scab of my sore. A friend told me, “Your guy is in town ooo. Hold your wife before he chops her again.”
That hurt.
I want to cheat back. I will do it with one of her friends. I don’t know how but that’s the plan. I don’t know how it’s going to solve anything but I feel if I get levelled with her, I can’t accuse her again or feel the pain again. Yes, I’ll let her know of it just like I also got to know.
What if she leaves me?
So be it. At least, both of us can rest in the knowledge that we messed things up with our own hands. I know it’s not a good idea but what if it’s the only thing that will help me get over it? Is it still a bad thing to do?